Busy Tomorrow.

Last night, I just finished Eclipse. That Twilight Saga is really my drugs nowadays. Damn addicted.

Before anything; on 25.01.1992, a dear friend-to-be for me is bornt, and he turns 18 today!! Happy Legal, dear.

[the fairest of them all is Muhd Izzat Amirul Mohd Saidey]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! *clap2*

Back to tomorrow's plans..

Adoi.. I have Car Lessons AND motor lessons.

Damn.

CAR.MOTOR.CAR.MOTOR.GEAR.CLUTCH.DAMN.BREAK.HUMP.LEFT HAND UP.

SHUT UP, WILL YOU?

The best part comes after that, Will be out with VIGNESWARY ANATHAM!! yay!

Can't wait for it!

Suicidal Obsession

Okay, to date, it's ONE MONTH AND TWO WEEKS since I left MRSM BATU PAHAT JOHOR. (:
yeah, gracias. gracias.

Consider me the guy witouth PLKN and JOBLESS - with obssesion in dining OUT.  Freakingly achening.
Look inside my fridge and you could find these: 

1. After Eight
2. Cadbury
3. Toblerone
4. *at this point, i went to my fridge and looked inside* Belgian Dark Chocolate
5. Cote D'Or 
6. Tudor Gold Almonds Chocolate
7. Belgian Milk Chocolate *x penah perasan bende nie*
8. Belgian Seashells Chocolate
9. Ferrero Rocher [Personal favourite]
   
10. KitKat Deluxe
11. VITAGEN
12. HL Milk, Chocolate Flavour.*yummy*

Damn. Yes, all of these are freakin IMPORTED CHOCOLATES!!! except Vitagen kowt.. Damn. My family is ADDICTED to Chocolates. Oh, please. Im like getting more & more into my belly as the clock ticks. Nasib baik, I do have FRUITS in the fridge, too. Thanks, mum!


So scared to step on the scale now. Guess wat?

Mum: Hey, Diivan. You rdy got that again (sambil sentuh her cheeks)

Divv: Owh yeah, I need a shave again. hakx.. mum!

Mum: Nop. Not that. I mean, Your chubbiness! Last month, like bony a bit. Now, chubby

Divv: Wat? You kidding?! OMG!!

Mum: hahaha..

That's sickening. In days I might be over-weight (or maybe now), in weeks I'll be Obese and next month I can join The Biggest Loser Asia!! - with chances of dying the next minute! argh...

Damn. (What's with "damn"?)

Anyway, I did the test in biggestloserclub.com and for a 18 year old male with 179lbs weight and 6.0ft height, i'm NORMAL *hear that, Lhobna!!*! Pheww!

But, I've to CHANGE. THAT'S FINALISED!

Divv, Jog, please. U need to beat Haziq! haha..

xoxo.

Donationz Crap

Despite all the hussle and bussle of cleaning my dusty+unarranged since SPM+unwanted junks BOOKSHELF, and my parents "syok-ly" taking a nap, i heard a voice...

"Aunty.. Aunty.."

I thought it was some parents of my mum's tuition students. I opened the door, there stood a girl, NOT very young, TEENAGER kowt.. *Tologlah senyum sikit when sum1 opened the door, bitch*

Puzzled, i went to the gate *What a bitch like you is doing front of my house?*
Ok, here she goes. Owh, donation! yeah, great! *Dahla cakap wif GARANG and FORMAL TAMIL* Haizz... and, entah kat mane i drop my wallet before my MAJOR ROOM makeover!

I declined. "No, it's OK.. (in tamil)"

AFTER THAT, she like mad at me, ulang2 bende same.. Gulp! She even hinted "xkan derma cikit pon xleyh (in FORMAL TAMIL again)"

Excuse me, bitch~ If you asked politely.. I might really help. But, you're like MAD and angrily shouting!! U think I'm a SERVANT of yours, is it? Urgh, f**k it!
kalau nak mintak derma, mintak nicely lah! not RUDELY! hampeh seyh!

The UGLY truth.

It seems to happen without even you knowing it. A slip of your consiousness can cause you to screw up your own emotional quotient and end up loving a rival. Or, that was what I got from this movie:



However, as awkward as it is, the guy who seems to hate the girl finally falls for her! duhh... We've had those stuff enough. What with the old people saying " gaduh-gaduh, lama-lama kahwin.. ". DO we still believe in that?

Enough with that, it is crucial that we see the ugly truth in the prospect that is beneficial as a part of this country, Malaysia. Sorry, not divorce cases or men+women relationship but, the truth that we must overcome, the diversity of the population. Looking into ourselves, I barely know anyone of these today POLITICIANS or ADOLESCENTS or YOUTH who would declare himself of a proud Malaysian and be shameful to name himself on his own race. Malaysia will not change but it will be the fucking same until the time when we no longer need the "Race" column in our biodata comes. And, we will wait till that happens, and also look out if some 1Malaysia shit is going to make that come true.

The truth: Everyone is dying to stay in a country taht is safe and peaceful to all ~ no matter others like it or not.
The UGLY truth: Malaysians, politician freaks are too selfish to sacrifice even a drop of the benefit they are gettig in pursue of a better Malaysia.

100 Truths on me!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Coffee
2. Last phone call: Darshan.

3. Last text message: Lhobna
4. Last song you listened to: Do you remember, Jay Sean
5. Last time you cried: No idea ~

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : Waah... nop! ~
7. Been cheated on : Once
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : Nop (:
9. Lost someone special: obviously! yeah..
10. Been depressed: Most of my freakin time.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Not drunk until throwing up, though...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.Blue
13.White
14.Black

LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: You wouldn't imagine how many!!
16. Fallen out of love: Fallen out?! yup!! :(
17. Laughed until you cried: Lots and lots of times...
18. Met someone who changed you: Don't think so. Ain't taht changeable!
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeah.. (:
20. Found out someone was talking about you: freaking many times. bt, i dun giv a damn!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: let 'em jz be friends, can't they?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Friends in facebook? quite a lot. 65% perhaps.
23. How many kids do you want to have: NOT that many to start a footbal team. :D
24. Do you have any pets: Nop
25. Do you want to change your name?: I Love my name!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: 1 thing 4 sure: I didn't cut a cake...
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.00 am :P
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: smsing with Lhobna, reading newmoon, listening 2 Jay Sean. (:
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: SPM results... feeling damn bored already.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: few hours ago. before she went for her job.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : My body size? gulp!
32. What are you listening to right now: Cinderella, Steven Curtis *credited 2 Haziq*
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom? from myspace.com?

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: my ex, maybe.. dunno. Malaysian politics!!
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook and http://divvraj.blogspot.com 
36. Whats your real name: Diivan Raj Silvakumar..
37. Nicknames: divv raj..
38. Relationship Status: TOTALLY single.
39. Zodiac sign: Libra
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Elementary: Tadika Gertak Merah, Tadika Warna Warni.
42. Middle School?: SK Kompleks UDA (1999-2004)
43. High school/college?: MRSM Batu Pahat, johor. (2005-2009)
44. Hair colour: Black.
45. Long or short: Kindda short la.. Long hair, MERIMASKAN!
46. Height: tall enough! 1.85m :)
47. Do you have a crush on someone : Not in particular. Just some random celebrity..
48: What do you like about yourself? : My confidence in some way or another.
49. Piercings: I had earings as a kid. Now, no more. :(
50. Tattoos: nah..
51. Righty or lefty: Both :P righty la..

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: yeah, 1998
53. First piercing: 5 years old, 1997
54. First best friend: Thevandran Nair, now in Kedah...
55. First sport you joined: Volleyball.. The only sport i love.
56. First vacation: Melaka, barely 3 years old..
58. First pair of trainer: wtf! hw shud i noe?

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: jz had breakfast..
60. Drinking: coffee... bkn da tanye?!
61. I'm about to: mop my house.. haizz... dream!
62. Listening to: *u asked alrdy!* now diff song, Shape of my heart, BSB.
63. Waiting : Haziq 2 call me, Lhobna 2 text me, Mum 2 come back, trip 2 kl.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: sure..
65. Get Married?: minimum: 28 years old. wanna be rich first! :)
66. Career?: depends on my freakin results, Medic or Chemical Engineering. :) love both.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes..
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs, warmer.
69. Shorter or taller: taller girls, shorter than me! :P
70. Older or Younger: don't mind... same age?
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both.. romantic & spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: no comment.
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive.. jz like me!
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.. loyal la sikit..
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker! very sporting..

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: haven't.. maybe one fine day :P
77. Drank hard liquor: wine counts? haha...
78. Lost glasses/contacts: once.. turned out to be broken!
80. Broken someone's heart: guess so.. m not sure.
82. Been arrested: dun wan 2.. im clean, dude!
83. Turned someone down: nah..
84. Cried when someone died: My DEAREST grandfather.. The only one.
85. Fallen for a friend?: yeah.. and declared after a couple of years. sadly, ended! :(

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: VERY MUCH!!!
87. Miracles: yeah... Disney world!
88. Love at first sight: yeah.. hoping for that.
89. Heaven: surely. Paradise!
90. Santa Claus: Let's not break children's hopes, ok?
92. Angels: Im sure there are, in paradise.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: honestly.. No.
95. Did you sing today?: Hummed..
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Haven't yet lorh..
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Primary 6, dun want to go to MRSM!
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day i got Pembahas Terbaik :P
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Why should I? Im hoping actually..
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Freakin yess!!! 

p/s: to all my friends, all blog walkers, all people who read this, PLEASE consider yourselves TAGGED! boo...

Batu Pahat Memoirs;

The same red bus,
The same route,
The same bus station,
The same escalator,
The same hatred feeling...

Then i saw you smiling. It felt so warm all of a suddden. SADIQ, i couldn't love you more, buddy. The moment i felt so lonely in a bus station that used to be so familiar yet creepy is about to fade as I saw him walking, as usual beaming at me in a BLACK TSHIRT.

Dear, hadn't it been like ages since i saw you (a month perhaps) that last i laughed with you (: The truth is that i miss you dearly now that im like HELL trapped in a house so far away from me nearing you each second. I couldn't believe that you would had been there for me just in such a SHORT notice. Willing to do it for me! and you gave me a song; guess what, i LOVE it. (maybe sebab tu lagu Akon kowt...)

Be With You, Akon!

:) Left to MRSM, on da way, haziq called

Haziq: Divv, ko kt ne?

Me: Urm.. just 10 more minutes (padahal jauh lg)

Haziq: Hey, u wearing jeans ke?

Divv: of course arr...

Haziq: Shit! Kteorg just masuk, bt parents kteorg kene call HEP arr. U try yur best.

Divv: F***!! I dunno why but i hate this God damnit place. U cannot wait for another 5 min ke?

Haziq: Actually, ak dh kt dlm, with Nad, Kishen and Jaya and Naza.

Divv: Owh.. C ya there.

Hung up.

Shit ): Now like the worst seem to happen. Why isn't jeans considered "kemas"?!! It's not like im wearing a torn up Dolce&Gabbana jeans or some with weirdo lines where there are hard punk signs or like that. Totally irritating! Luckily I wore a plain striped pink beighe D'Urban COLLARED tshirt! they can't  pick point that, or do they?! so, went to the freakin guard post. (:

"Urm, pakcik. Nak masuk bleh.. nak amik sijil."

Shockingly, he insisted i TO PATAH BALIK! omg!! then, i tried those begging threats and finally i had to speak to 1. Penolong Tadbit Kanan, 2. HEP, 3. Pengetua (That's Norzan, I meant Madam Norzan);' can't possibly think of any reason why the URUSAN of an exstudent (Im still a student there, on second thought) to enter MRSM is a PENGETUA's freakin business. Imagine this, an Officer wants to walk into his exoffice and the CEO have to say a yes first!!?! How freakin stupid is that!

Bla...bla..bla.. Thanks to Nad's mum, it all went well. So, the best part of the day should be... nop, not being there at BPJ, bt MEETING my BESTTEST BUDDY; Haziq Ghafar. Im like so thrilled! he was with me no matter where we went after that. It's like a whole lot of fun. My greatest concern was to meet Cg. Rosnah, and she is MUCH MUCH better now. God, I thank HIM, blissfully. She's like my GodMum there, kowt.. and, meeting up with all those teachers that i HEART most in that college, Miss Mei, Miss Nora, Miss Ziha (why do all the Miss comes first?! freain!) Sir Isa and lots of them. Sir Hannata wasn't very much friendly though. Certainly miss Mdm. Hawabi and Ckg. Halim; miss ya lyke lots! (Divv, it's just a month!)

(Jit, here this); Even though Haziq promised to BELANJE me, he had to make a move first. Well, i would have done the same too, but i'd bet i would have a fight with my mum afterwards... Hurm, maybe it's always FAMILY first (:

Whatever it is buddy, Haziq, we're still friends no matter what happens. I didn't take that much into my heart. n, haziq, Fyi, stop feeling Gemok! lol. Guess jogging (even for once) does a little trick. *wink* AND, dun be mad at the others too. sure they have their reason.

Im so mad at myself coz i forgot to take pictures with haziq, when i brought a camera! :(

{bye-bye}

Do you Remember, dear?

Yeah! Sean Paul

Lil Jon!
This one right here is for all the ladies
Ladies who want to take it back
(I don't know what Sean Paul said)
Holler at them Jay

I've been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to live we could start again

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back

(Yo Jay Sing for these ladies! )

So long since you've been missing
It's good to see you again
How you how you doing
And how about we don't let this happen again

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )
Let's bring it back (Bring it back! )

Yo ay girl yo bring it back to the time when you and me had just begun
When I was still your number one
Well it might seem far-fetched baby girl but it can't be done
I've got this feeling fire blazing and it's hot just like the sun
Know you feel it too my girl just freeze up may the good vibes run...
Girl take a sip of the champange take a lil trip down my lane my girl
While you noe every night you'll feel alright look I tell you dis girl atta My world
Don't change imma na Rearange Ay girl imma tell you straight dis atta my world
How many years do you want come kiss dis I know you miss this
That's what I heard that's what I heard that's what I heard word girl

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Oh)
Let's bring it back

Unfinished line.

Why do we get these f**king 3 months?!
Only boredomness crept over me like god knows how long more. I'm like the biggest moron to be at home at this time when my buddies are all over at their JOB!

My gosh, Job?! Surely, no way. So not for all this tireness and day-to-night office hours. It's just ONE FREAKING month since we last sat for SPM! Congratz.. (for what?!)
*though i would Love the cash.. (:

the life of a seventeen eighteen year old couldn't be much duller. Especially when the ONLY sibling-cum-friend-cum-best person ever BROTHER just left to his campus last night. I woke up on this bright Saturday morning to an EMPTY house. How awful...

If it wasn't abvious yet, I'm SINGLE.. Dreadfully, (thanks to my freakin 5 years in MRSM) I hardly know any gurls in my place. That spells PATHETIC *did i get that right?

I'll be waiting... (:

btw, thankx 2 mystery girl RUBY (i seriously dun noe who u're bt it's FUN) and Lhoba for cherishing my life. Haziq, Nana & Era; u guys still are IRREPLACEABLE. ever!

New Year's Eve Celebration.

Now, I'm feeling awkard. It's a whole new year but there isn't a single goosebumps on going back to school. Wait, that's because I FREAKINGly graduated from high school!!! No uniform shopping, no shoes shopping, no new pencils and pens, no smell of a new bag...

nevertheless, we guys welcomed 2010 merrily. It wasn't as merry as before these years, though. Factors? Dash and his family had to leave home at 12.15am coz they're leaving to Camerons the next day, and.. Kishen and his family FAILed to turn up. Whatever the reasons are thogh.

Venue: Grand Ballroom, Straits View Garden Restaurant, Danga bay, JB.
Event: Johor Cultural & Sports Club (JCSC) annual New Year's Eve Dinner and Dance.
Time: 7.00pm ~ 1.30am
Dress Code: Smart Casual *I forgot these, though*
Invitation: It's kindda charity dinner la, dude!
Menu: 8 course meal *sorry, but LOUSY!*


Summary: It was like *owh-so-boring* when the Alvis Presley impersonator was performing. But the Michael jackson impersonator was a TOTAL AWESOME! Dude, gua respect same lu!

[Grand Ballroom]

 Well, it was fun welcoming 2010. Really hope that 2010 marks a GREAT voyage in my life to achieve my goals and ambitions..

P/S: I felt awkard to wear a tie, so, I didn't use it to the party! hakx...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!